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I Don’t Want to Talk to You

i don’t want to talk to you
if i talk to you it hurts too much
stings and punches
makes all of this real
but oh, it must be real
or you wouldn’t be here
at my door
with flowers
and that look in your eyes
mournful and scared
awkward yet brave in your very arrival
you wouldn’t wear that expression
of twisted confusion
and wretched anguish

all the gushing feelings you can’t possibly articulate
right now
maybe ever
are there in your quivering chin
pressed lips
eyes damp with crimson

you don’t know what to say
and i don’t either
but you try
bless you
you try

with cards and letters
needed nourishment for body and soul
feeding the troops who arrive embattled

grappling offers of  anything i can do
you try
to poke holes in the thick blackness
cultivate a glimmer of light
with calls not answered
messages not returned
you try
with love
to plaster the shattering cracks invisible
bless you for it
and forever thank you

thank you
because there is nothing else to do
when the only thing i really want

is impossible.

17 Comments

  1. Sandy Appleby

    Beautiful, Tara McGuire.

    Beautiful Tara McGuire, we have never met
    But for years you impacted my life
    As you have now
    And I want you to know
    How very much
    I care.
    xxx

  2. Rob Collins

    In your writings, I trust that Peace will surround your heart as your Spirit continues its mission here on earth.
    Such a marvellous gift you have to express your thoughts with us.
    Take care Tara,
    RC

  3. Marianne

    OMG, what are you possibly going through after this fabulous journey you have endeavoured , my thoughts are with you and hope all is well and this shall also pass <3

  4. Trish

    Tara – you were such a huge part of my mornings for so many many years. Your beautiful poem makes my heart ache even more for your loss. I hope your healing is helped with your memories and that one day, a memory will have you smiling through your pain.

  5. Regina

    I think about you often, Tara. Your wonderful words, spilled on this page will help your healing.
    You are surrounded by people who love and care for you, You are an inspiration, more than you know.

  6. Jennifer Brum

    Tara, what a beautifully written declaration of your struggle and vulnerable state. I’m so sorry to hear your tragic news. I appreciate your honesty and send you love and compassion during this unbearable time. Thinking of you and your family…. With love, Jen and family xo

  7. Shana

    Thinking of you Tara, with love. Although I can’t begin to understand the profound depth of your grief, I am touched and amazed at your remarkable ability to express it in words.

  8. Meg

    Dear Tara, I love the comment from Regina, above…”Your wonderful words, spilled on this page will help your healing., ”
    Spilled on to the page is just so descriptive, as is your incredible poem, the words enveloping your anguish.
    We just want you to know you are in our thoughts and we are are so sad for you and your family.
    You are a writer.
    with much love,
    Terry and Meg Mulligan

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